Tough choices
Broke out my old books again and started going through them to see how much of the material I remembered, and how much of it had I forgotten from last summer. It didn’t take very long to for me to get frustrated at realizing that that every time I come across a topic, I felt like I knew it from the front to the back, so much to the point that I couldn’t bring myself to get through a whole substantive topic. I’m beginning to wonder if mentally it’s much too early to take this test again, in a real ass-backward logic sort of way, it seems like I’ll be better able to devote the necessary time and dedication to preparing for it is to forget large chunks of the material and learn it all over again.
Then there are the warning signs that I may be setting myself up for failure should I decide to jump in one more time. Most obvious is the amount of time commitment I have to dedicate towards studying. I also decided early on that all of my annual leave from here on out will be for when the baby comes, so I would not be taking any time off should I decide to take the test again. I could not see how taking another course would be helpful, and in no way could I justify dropping another couple grand on another law related class, not now after dropping major money for 4 years of law school.
Most importantly, I’ve been pretty distracted with the baby preparations, buying new furniture, reading up on baby books, reorganizing the finances to handle the additional expenses, it is all very exciting and so much more positive activities than the dry study of contract formation and UCC 2-207.
Of course in the back of my head what is really eating at me is the prospects of taking and failing again, which is something that I don’t want to put myself through again, even after going through the process once already and knowing what the test is and isn’t. After having time to open my eyes a bit and really see things for what they are, I can’t see how it’s worth it.